For a whole week Olivia didn’t know. She was finally told when she got back from school camp and it was then that the rest of us, well myself at least, realised that it was the fear of how she was going to cope that was weighing so heavily on us.
For that week I was constantly on the verge of tears and grateful to all my friends and family for their support. On the following Sunday I had had a particularly emotional day and realised that this whole time I was worried about how my sisters were doing and how my parents were doing but not taking into any account how I was actually doing. Turned out I wasn’t coping as well as I thought.
That night I got to talk to Livy for the first time since she found out. The way she was handling it really blew me out of the water. Her faith in God was so much stronger than mine. What I learned from her in one conversation changed my whole perspective and feelings around this and the constant tears dissipated pretty much immediately. The gist of her conversation was an incredulous “I’m trusting God, so why aren’t you?” She believes none of us have it and her faith overflowed into me. It shocked me enough to make me believe it.
It is funny though how life is, while I was so worried about how Liv was going to handle it, it ended up being her that changed me.
For that week I was constantly on the verge of tears and grateful to all my friends and family for their support. On the following Sunday I had had a particularly emotional day and realised that this whole time I was worried about how my sisters were doing and how my parents were doing but not taking into any account how I was actually doing. Turned out I wasn’t coping as well as I thought.
That night I got to talk to Livy for the first time since she found out. The way she was handling it really blew me out of the water. Her faith in God was so much stronger than mine. What I learned from her in one conversation changed my whole perspective and feelings around this and the constant tears dissipated pretty much immediately. The gist of her conversation was an incredulous “I’m trusting God, so why aren’t you?” She believes none of us have it and her faith overflowed into me. It shocked me enough to make me believe it.
It is funny though how life is, while I was so worried about how Liv was going to handle it, it ended up being her that changed me.